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9/29/05 10:31 pm - grrrrrrrr

Wow..... I thought everything was finally coming together. My new computer was gonna get fixed and i'd be playing with it tonight. Turns out I was dreaming.... Well not litteraly, but when I brought it home tonight and turned it on, there wasn't anything showing on the screen. At first I was sure it was my new 19" flatscreen monitor, but i'm using it right now with my old computer, so it can't be that. This will be the 4th time I return to that store now. In 2 weeks time. Hopefully they'll fix that problem tomorrow. I don't want to return again, i'm so fed up it's not even funny.

Other than that i'm very tired, I need sleep. Too bad it's not the weekend yet. One more day of work, then it's relaxing time for stou, and it will be well-deserved too.

I can say one thing about my new monitor. KICK ASS. I love it, I really do. I didn't think there was such a big difference between 19" and 17", but trust me, there is. And since it's flat, it won't take much space on my table in my room :D LCD rocks :D

Anyways, it's kinda gettin late, so I better go to bed. I'll have to sort this all out tomorrow, once again :(

9/25/05 05:51 pm - damn computer stores grrrrrrr

I bought a computer last week. But since I always work, I have no time to actually get down there and buy it myself. So I had to send my mom to buy it FOR me. Big mistake. The sales clerk probably thought it was for her. What the guy didn't know is that it was ME who he was screwing. And I know a lot about computers. He screwed me BIG time. First, he gave me 512mb of RAM instead of 1024, then he gave me 75gigs of harddrive instead of 250gigs, gave me a crappy graphic card instead of a decent one. He didn't even install the proper windows for god's sake. This pisses me off big time because I have been waiting since last monday. I went to pick it up yesterday, turned it on when I got back home, checked if everything was there, and had a nasty surprise. Now I have to send my mom again to bring it back to make them fix it to what I want. My monitor screen hasn't even arrived in the store for christ's sake. The sales guy was trying to sell me a cheaper, smaller one. I was like.....don't take me for an idiot. I probably won't have my computer till the end of the week, that's if i'm lucky. One thing's for sure, i'm not leaving that store until he turns it on and shows me all the stuff that's supposed to be there. Fooled me once, won't happen again.

God I hate it when things go sideways.

That's it, just had to let this out...

9/17/05 03:55 pm - damn !

It's finally saturday. I say finally because it's been one of those long ass weeks that just didn't seem to want to end. Also we now have a new guy in the office. I feel kinda sad because it was nice before, just my boss, me and my collegue. Now four, it's starting to be a little much. To add to that, he's sitting right next to me. And he's the type of guy who can get quite annoying when he's iritated. Yesterday I could tell he was irritated, because he kept making noises with his mouth and stuff like that. Anyways, in time it'll get better and i'll get used to it, no doubt. It was kind of weird, because I was giving orders to him, which made me feel kinda funny hehhe.

I might be doing that more often soon though. That's if my boss is true to his word. Because last week, while we were celebrating the new guy's job with us, my boss told me that the next guy he was thinking of hiring was another designer. That can be taken as good news and bad news at the same time. The reason is because, sure it will take a load off my shoulders, because i'm always covered with work, it will be nice to have less, but I fear there would be competition between us. I'm good at my job, but i'm known to be absent-minded most times. So it wouldn't be too hard to be better than me. It would be kinda funny giving orders to the new designer though hehe

Tonight if i'm still feeling up to it, i'm supposed to go to a party. It will be nice because a lot of my college friends will be there, and I haven't seen them in like forever.

I received a funny email last night. I only opened it this morning though. Made me laugh hehe. It was a reply from a company to whom I had sent my resume. BACK IN DECEMBER 2004 ! I hope they don't think I was waiting for an answer from them hehehe Geez, almost took them 1 year to give me an answer, nice, real nice. I was real desperate to find a job back then, and it shows. I checked this morning to see what the company was and where it was. Turns out it's in Québec, Québec. Which is hella far from where I live at the present moment. Like 2-2:30 drive hehehe. The job I have at the moment is enough travelling thx ;)

That's all the interesting bits from my life. Hope it entertained you. I didn't see a use to tell all the boring stuff ;)

9/1/05 09:52 pm - No ?!?!?! again ????

Ok, so..... So far I had a pretty normal week. That was right up until around 11am today. It's pay week this week. And like most weeks, I got yet another surprise. Yep, that's right, got another raise. It's weird that my boss gives me raises without telling me about it. So yeah, I went from "pretty good pay" to a "little lower pay" (only about 3$ lower) to a "51$ raise" this week. I guess I deserve them though, because i work extra hard at my job, and i do a damn good job at it too. I'm probably the "work horse" of the company and I probably do the most work out of us 3. So yeah, it's well deserved :)

Besides that, yeah, it's a holiday on monday, so that means it's a 3 day weekend for me, wheeeeee :D I'll probably buy some beers on saturday with the "raise money" I got.

I met a cute girl today at a drug store. Turns out she was working with my mom at the grocery store where my mom works. Apparently she quit and now works at the drug store. Even if I DID find her cute, I didn't ask her out, because ONE, she looks way too young for me, and it would probably be awkward. And TWO, even if I WERE her age, she probably has a boyfriend anyways. I always have the bad luck of falling for girls who are in relationships. Must be my curse hehe

Hmmmm. what else can I say ? My life is pretty dull and boring at the moment. I really feel like i'm re-living the same day over and over again (a little like the movie "Groundhog Day" with Bill Murray, for those who saw it). Well, ok, it's not exactly the same, but a lot of parts of my day are similar from day to day, that I assure you.

Lately i've been thinking about a, "former" friend of mine. I say former because I don't really think I consider her as a friend anymore. She's the kind of person who takes, takes and takes. And doesn't even thank you back or say anything back to you. I wrote this friend a letter and sent it by mail, and she never wrote me back. I also sent her lots of emails with pictures that she requested, and I never even got a "thank you" from her. So I guess it's over, I'll move on, whatever. If the feeling is not there anymore, why bother....

Wow, I actually wrote lots this time.

8/16/05 08:36 pm - hmmmmm

Ever feel like your life is stuck in repeat ? I do....

8/3/05 08:18 pm - somethin smells fishy around here, and it ain't me...

So yeah, something is definately fishy. I'm really not complaining, but I just got YET another raise. That means I'm at 17$ an hour now. And what's very weird is the fact that my boss never even told me about it. I'm really starting to wonder if he's not doing all of this on purpose just to keep me in his company. My boss has taken a life insurance policy recently, so I expected that he was gonna take a whole lot of money from my checks. Turns out he didn't. Well, he DID, but since I got this "unsuspected" raise, it looks as if he didn't.

But what's really bad out of all of this is the fact that my boss switched my collegue's check with mine. And we both saw the amount on each other's checks. I now know that I make more than him, and he knows he makes less than me. And to me that's wrong, cuz i've only been there for 5 monthes, and already i've had 2 raises (one of which is 2$ higher). I was feeling bad all day today, cuz I was feeling bad about this. I know that I do a good job and everything, but still, isn't this raise thing going just a little fast ? Maybe I'm just being paranoid...

That's pretty much it, that's all I had on my mind tonight...

7/29/05 09:01 pm - hmmmpf....

It's friday, finally, I was beginning to think that this nightmarish week would never end.  It was a long and aweful week at work.  My boss was asking too much of me, and i'm dead-tired.  What a nice weekend this will be...  I dunno if you guys ever felt like this, but right now i'm rejecting everyone out.  I am secluding myself from everyone and am trying to not talk to anyone.  I guess it's a phase.  Never happened to me before though.  I heard that my friend called me earlier when I wasn't there, but I don't feel like calling back today.  Maybe tomorrow.  I was supposed to do something with him this week, or was it last week ?  I can't remember, my head is a mess at the moment.  Time seems to just slip away, honestly.  When you have a job like mine, I guess that's normal.  I wasn't the only one tired at work today.  My collegue was feeling the same exact way and he was very eager for the weekend as well.  My boss left early today (around noonish) without telling us if he'd be back or not.  I'm thinking he did that deliberately just to make us fear the fact that he might be coming back.  I hate when he does that grrrrr.

I came back from shopping earlier.  I'm pretty happy with what I found.  Found a Garfield plushtoy (yeah, you guys should know by now that i'm a Garfield freak).  And I also found the main thing I was after, meaning a plushtoy penguin which i'll send to my friend in Australia.  I almost got everything that I want to send her ready.  I'm sending it all by mail, and hopefully it will get there alright.

That's it for this edition.

Almost forgot, I made this banner thingy for some guy from a forum I visit :


7/25/05 07:51 pm - life sucks, but what else is new...

Ok.  It has been a while since i've really updated this Lj thingy...  I just don't put the time and effort in it anymore.

Lately i've been feeling like both my life and my summer are being flushed down the toilet.  I seriously mean it.  This job is harder than I thought.  Not the job itself, that part is pretty easy for me, because it's my area of expertise.  What's hard is : Getting up in the morning, getting ready, walk to the bus stop, take the bus, walk to the subway, take the subway, get off, walk to work.  And then after that, I gotta repeat all of this again to get home.  And I do that 5 times a week, 24 days a month.  I've actually counted how much time I take for work during a week.  I shouldn't have counted, because it depressed me even more.  Believe it or not, but I spend over 60hrs for work per week.  That's freakin' insane.

Besides that, life's peachy..  Still got my mom breathing down my neck because she says I don't look happy with my life.  If she keeps it up I might as well pack up and leave.

Made 2 new wallpapers :





That's it for this edition.  Too down to write more...

7/9/05 05:17 pm

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Paul
Birthday:May 7th 1980
Birthplace:Laval (I think)
Current Location:St-Bruno, Québec, Canada
Eye Color:green and sometimes grey
Hair Color:dark brown
Height:5-11"
Right Handed or Left Handed:right-handed
Your Heritage:spanish
The Shoes You Wore Today:beige skate shoes
Your Weakness:falls too easily in love
Your Fears:not gonna tell ya
Your Perfect Pizza:cheese and mushrooms
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:to find a girlfriend
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:"hehehe, "btw"
Thoughts First Waking Up:shit my life sucks balls
Your Best Physical Feature:my eyes I guess
Your Bedtime:around 10:30pm
Your Most Missed Memory:my college years
Pepsi or Coke:pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:McDonald's
Single or Group Dates:single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:neither
Do you Smoke:nope
Do you Swear:yep, a lot of times
Do you Sing:used to
Do you Shower Daily:yep, but i've just heard you can get brain cancer if you shower too much
Have you Been in Love:yep
Do you want to go to College:already did that
Do you want to get Married:not sure yet
Do you belive in yourself:sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:nope
Do you think you are Attractive:hmmmmmm....
Are you a Health Freak:nah
Do you get along with your Parents:yep
Do you like Thunderstorms:yep, but not when I get power failure
Do you play an Instrument:nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yep, just bought 2 cases of Smirnoff's
In the past month have you Smoked:nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yep, just did an hour ago
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:nope
In the past month have you been Dumped:nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:nope
Ever been Drunk:yep, lots of times
Ever been called a Tease:nope
Ever been Beaten up:nope
Ever Shoplifted:nope
How do you want to Die:depends....
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:aren't I already grown up ?
What country would you most like to Visit:either Romania or Australia
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:brown
Favourite Hair Color:blonde or brown
Short or Long Hair:long
Height:smaller than me
Weight:a little big "chubby"
Best Clothing Style:doesn't matter
Number of Drugs I have taken:none
Number of CDs I own:close to 50
Number of Piercings:none
Number of Tattoos:none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:can't think of anything

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

6/29/05 08:11 pm - criticizing

Let me just start this entry with this : "I'm sick and tired of people criticizing me for stupid things..."

Lately everybody seems to find ways to criticize me, how I live my life, etc. It's really starting to get on my nerves. Now that I've got a job everybody's telling me that i'm wasting my life, not fully living it and blablabla. At 1st it was my cousin telling me he was pissed cuz we didn't get to spend as much time doing things together. And now it's my other cousin who's telling me that what i'm doing right now with my life is shit. Thanks a lot people.... Fuck 'em, seriously, fuck 'em... I couldn't give a flying fuck what they think. It's MY life and i'll fuckin do what I please with it.

To add to that my mom's breathing down my neck cuz she's dissapointed that I'm doomed to be eternally single. Fuck that... If this keeps up i'll just move out and live in my own appartment, alone...

Next week i'll be alone at the office... for 2 weeks this time (as opposed to 4 days last time). It will be pretty quiet, and that's a good thing, cuz I won't have the boss looking over my shoulder every 10mins. It would be so easy to cut work early. Cuz there's no one checking me, and there's no "punch", so ppl can't know when I come in and when I leave... But since i'm a good boy I won't take advantage of that. Of course I might do a little less work and try and chat a little, but hey, at least I will have shown up at work ;)

That's it for now, too pissed to write more...
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